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Assalammualaikum.

salam nuzul Quran! may Allah bless us & grant us Jannah. InshaAllah.

so how's your fasting so far? good?

okay lemme tell ya one story, alah actually bukan story pun but it based on my pengalaman so i wanna share something might be inspire someone who read this out there.

here we go, bismisllahirahmanirahim.

before that, this content tak riak pun. aku cuma nak share.

ramadan has change me to be a better person & muslimah, i think so. ramadan makes me learn about patience & the way to get more closer to Him. alhamdulillah i'm trying not to be riak but this is what i feel. yes, ramadan change me. inshaAllah aku harap sangat benda ni berkekalan.

aku kan dulu ni mana cukupkan waktu sembahyang. nak cukupkan waktu ada saja halangan. contoh halangan yg bodoh bagi aku tu is ada orang ramai dekat sekeliling aku yg buat aku rasa terlupa Dia, pastu buat something yg aku asyik sangat sampai lupa waktu solat, lalai, buat tak endah bab sembahyang & anggap tak sembahyang ni normal.

sejak ramadhan ni alhamdulillah so far aku penuhkan waktu sembahyang aku. walaupun ada yang aku buat nak habis waktu dah but i'm trying so hard cukupkan jugak amalan wajib 5 kali sehari ni.

aku ni pesen ((jenis)) yang kenang budi [rasanyalah], sebab waktu aku down & waktu aku patah semangat, aku jumpa Dia mintak segalanya agar aku tak resah dah & He answered my prayer. He gave me a strengthen. alhamdulillah. lepas tu kejadian tu aku selalu cakap kat diri sendiri kalau rasa malas nak sembahyang, i will talk to myself

"tak malu eh? Dia bagi hang nyawa, rezeki, kasih sayang, kekuatan yg hang ada sekarang, takkan takleh nak spend 5 minit dekat Dia while Dia spend dekat hang udara 24 jam?"

brainwash diri sendiri & automatik diri sendiri bangun pi ambik wudhu. alhamdulillah. kena berkeras sikit dengan diri ni. lawan nafsu jahat yg ada.

so for those yg rasa nak berubah & takut gagal ((ya know what i mean kan? *kekening*)), always remember this kalau rasa macam nak terbabas, okay ayat aku deep sangat terbabas lah apalah.......

1) ingat, solat tu wajib. tak buat dosa. kalau buat dapat pahala & syurga. takkan takmau?
2) Allah suka orang yg sembah dia & minta dari Dia. you know why? read al-Fatihah. you'll know.
3) hati tenang. serious tak tipu. tenang sangat. setenang air di kolam blabla air dikolam pun tak setenang ni.
4) you'll satisfied. puas. lepas 5 waktu dah cukup akan datang satu rasa yg buat hang rasa puas sangat.
5) now you're believer. you're close to Him, sedaq tak?

pengajaran dari apa yg aku buat ni kan, kalau aku resah & ditimpa apa apa perkara yg tak baik, aku cecepat muhasabah diri cakap "Allah ada. Dia takkan bagi masalah kalau kita takleh settle la, we can get through this. laa tahzan Inaallah ma'ana, sabaq & ikhlaskan". 

perbanyakkan kaji surah surah dalam Malay & kita akan dapat rasa keagungan Dia. peh.

semoga ramadan ni mengajar & buat kita berubah ke arah kebaikkan.

muhasabah diri lagi, shaitan dah terkurung & hang masih tak reti sembah Allah, salah siapa ni? cuba pi depan cermin & you'll know who.

that's all. till then. selamat beramal. happy fasting (: xo

true love?

Assalammualaikum.

salam ramadan kesebelas!

tadi baca maria elena punya blog & dia buat cerpen yg bagi aku memang boleh nangis kaw kaw punya kalau aku jadi 'watak' utama dalam short cerpen dia tu. you guys can read them right here.

so i wanna talk about this.

what if one day, you marry with someone you love ((of course lah kan?)) & you live happily with them & suddenly they get sick & meninggal. now, you're single wife, husband, mom / dad. could you ever imagine that?

ugh even it hard tapi aku dah fikir dah benda ni. i know its written by Allah already. that's why i ask you guys, about the preparation & such. are you ready for that?

kena pulak cerita anak anak hangpa pulak pesen tak ambik port pasai hangpa sebab depa busy, lagi sedih kan? so starting from now what you guys need to do is taking a good care of your parents lah & Allah will reward your deeds.

kita buat kerja seikhlas mungkin & let Allah handle the rest. tawakal. okay?

hehe i'm kinda boring right now so thats why im update this entry. i think it nice to share something that make us think about the future. right?

"blessed is the man who found a girl that loves God more than him & blessed is the girl who found a man that waits for her & ask her from God"

take care. happy fasting (: x

how to be a strong person ececeh

Assalammualaikum.

salam ramadhan people!

sorry bcs i'm not updating this blog for a long time. dah ramadan baru gegeh nak update. ni pun sebab bosan. hihi.

so yeah fyi i've been rejected with someone i waited for 2 years & i'm okay with that. it kinda disappointing but life must go on.

after what I've been through, i kinda losing a faith in love. i learned something from my past. i really need to be careful & i'm not going to easily let anyone in after this.

serious weh lepas semua ni aku macam heartless gila. people come & go. i dont know what the heck is wrong with me. lepas ni nak tumpu cari duit & ilmu jela. dekatkan diri dengan Tuhan lagi senang takdalah aku sakit hati camni.

today, i choose to be happy.
today, i choose to leave you alone.
today, i choose to stand on my own feet.
and today, you'll never look at me as yesterday.

i'm done with everything. i'm tired of all these shit.

"he dont deserve u. Ure strong & freaking brave" -@AntiHoney

by the way, thanks for those who always be there for me through thick & thin. i will never forget that. so does Allah, cuma Dia mampu bayar.

cuma ingat, kalau dah jodoh tu Allah dah tetap, larilah sejauh mana pun kita tetap jumpa balik. kalau tak berjodoh di dunia, di akhirat masih ada. have a faith in Him.

cuma sekarang aku tak ready dengan apa2 lagi, i mean, love. langsung tak bersedia. kawan-kawan aku ada yg dah kahwin & ada yg plan nak kahwin & i'm here all alone. its Allah's plan. i put a trust in Him & let Him handle the rest. kan? chill.

kepada gadis2 kat luar sana yg ranap sebab confessed & kena reject, don't worry, you're not alone, we're in the same boat. chill. at least we tried. depa tu yg bodoh sebab tolak. you know, aku baca kat mana ntah pasai lelaki yg reject perempuan tanpa sebab ni merupakan lelaki paling bodoh kat dunia. yups.

depa taktau agaknya camna perempuan tu kumpul segala kekuatan untuk bagitau. depa taktau macam mana rasanya bila perempuan tu susun ayat cantik punya semata2 nak mengaku. depa taktau & depa takkan pernah ambik tau, you know why? sebab depa buta, pekak & bodoh.

okay princess, keep your head up & don't ever let your crown fall.

I NEEDED NO ONE BUT MYSELF. 

true shit. okay aku nak bagi tips kat jiwa jiwa yg parah sebab cinta ni. tips dia 2 ja. first, kalau tengah sakit sekarang, jumpa Dia. ya, yg cipta kita & yg duk bagi kita bernyawa sekarang. mintak kat Dia kekuatan & kesabaran. you know after i prayed for the best, He answered. banyakkan mintak dekat Dia, Dia suka. tu pasai Dia Ar-Rahman ((Maha Pemurah)). Dia pun tak suka tengok kita sedih dikecewakan & Dia akan bagi kesenangan hati, sebab apa Dia bagi? sebab Dia Ar-Rahim ((Maha Penyayang)). yups.

banyakkan ingat kat Dia, Dia akan ingat kita balik. berbaloi sangat okay. dari ingat orang yg tak tentu hala yg tak sure dia pun ingat kat kita balik sangatlah buang masa. 

tips yg kedua, jangan cepat jatuh cinta & letak harapan menggunung. senang. hang tak sakit hati. buat taktau sudah. buat rilek. calm your titties girls. ahahaha. 

bukan nak kata apa tapi aku macam takda hati dah nak bercinta lani. huhu

 okay that's all. takmau sedih sedih dah. life must go on. sesapa yg rasa down gila lani bawak2 pi sembahyang & doa kat Dia. eh? hehe.