be more healthier

Assalammualaikum.

so aku nak share sikit lah apa yg aku buat sepanjang aku duduk kat rumah tak buat apa ni kan hehe.

oh btw borang jawapan poli aku dah pos pastu a couple days after that aku checked dekat website poli, depa dah terima borang tu & now im waiting jelah hehe.

so sementara tunggu ni, aku memang habis habisan punya workout. diet pun aku jaga cuma bila lapaq sangat terbabas jugak noks. semua manusia melakukan kesilapan ((tetiba)) ahahaha.

rutin aku pepagi, bangun & tercongok depan tv tengok the walking dead season yg lepas aku record ngehehehe sebab rindu sangat dengan rick grimes & daryl dixon. the walking dead episode baru 20 oct ni. please note that birthday aku 17 oct okay? kahkahkah nak jugak mencelah tu. ok atyn nobody cares.

lepas dah bangun tu aku layan tv jap pastu ke dapur untuk breakfast. breakfast aku bergantung pada tahap rajin atau malas. kalau rajin aku goreng telur & ikan bilis tu and makan je dengan nasik. nasik lak satu scoop ja sebab..........ala takda sebab pun kurangkan lagi bagus. why breakfast dengan nasi? penah dengaq quotes "breakfast like a king"? apa? tak pernah? now u dah pernah dengaq ok carry on.

lol

pastu sapu sampah rumah & buat kerja yang sewaktu dengannya. sementara tu aku squats lah sepuluh dua puluh kali. walaupun kaki terasa sakit sampai nak tercabut aku gagahkan jugak. takleh berlembut dengan lemak ni. hamboih. sejam sekali waktu siang memang aku squats sepuluh kali. kalau dari pukul 1-5, tak 50 kali? untung kan? haa try lah buat untuk dapatkan buntut yg mantop.

pastu tetiap hari ahad & rabu memang aku ikut abah pi gym. abah like always playing badminton with his friends, aku ni yg sorang2 ke gym. dengan lagu semua yg memberi semangat, aku workout dari pukul 8-9.30pm. hasil dia, kepuasan. peh. rasa puas & peluh yg keluaq tu memang buat aku happy sangat. berbaloi baloi.

waktu first aku pi dulu kan aku lari atas treadmill yg boleh baca calories & u know i burned about 100 calories. kinda proud of myself & it encourage me to do more & more. semangat lah kan. memang puas gilo. aku akan pastikan aku bakar sebanyak mampu yg boleh.

pastu hari lain pulak aku dah start cycling waktu malam. why malam? sebab siang ramai orang. malu i noks. so aku pilih malam. hehe. aku akan kayuh lepas maghrib dalam pukul 8 sampai 9. sejam je. peluh takyah cerita la. puas. sakit peha aku. but i guess it worth. hoho.

diet? memey aku diet. kalau makan nasik pun satu scoop je. kalau nak tambah aku akan motivate diri sendiri cakap "woi pehal nak tambah? cuba ingat sikit hang letih lari atas treadmill tu camna. sakai...dah, pi basuh tangan". haaa antara ayat power untuk diri sendiri. ngehehehe.

lepas tu aku akan buka tumblr cari pasai diet & tengok perempuan kurus yg lawa lawa tu dengan thigh gaps, collarbones, their abs peh sial memang buat aku membara siot. huhuhu. sesapa nak view boleh ja pi kat tumblr aku, atynroslan.tumblr.com

semoga aku akan terus macam ni. sihat ni seronok. air pun jangan lupa minum. baik. tak sembelit. badan pun dapat air cukup. aku minum 1000ml jugak sehari. hehe. gula pulak kalau boleh kurangkan. aku ni dari dulu kalau buat teh o bubuh gula 2 camca besaq tu now dah reduce jadi satu.

and kalau korang cuma diet dengan makan pill or ambik shake, it useless sebab takda senaman. aku ni kira bangga jugak sebab dapat control makan tanpa ubat ni.

hehe. so tu ja nak share. semoga entry ni buat sesapa yg baca terus bersemangat nak kurus & jadi lagi sihat. tak cakap pun gemuk tu tak sihat tapi sapa taknak jadi cantik pakai dress lawa2 kan? hehe. jom motivate diri sendiri.

sweat now, smile later.

cewah.

same shit

Assalammualaikum.

i don't know what the hell is wrong with me. why i have to face all this shit every time i'm in relationship? i just want a cute relationship, respect & love each other. that's all. respect, what's most important thing to me.

don't force your partner to do something that s/he don't like for god's sake. suka tak bila kena paksa buat menda hang tak suka? fucked up.

he told me that "jaga hubungan ni baik baik", after all he ruined everything we had. stupid.

i promise with myself that i won't be in love anymore. i just wanna live my life happily with my family, friends & stuffs, u know.

be wise be wise be wise.

have a nice day.

feelings

Assalammualaikum.

sometimes i regret that i let him into me. you know what i mean? i shouldn't. but it's late to undo everything.

i do i'm falling for him for whoever he is. how jerk he was but somehow i love him. this feelings can't lie.  i get jealous over smallest things because i can't control it.

but now, the feeling seems like wanna fading away. my feeling towards him like fading. i don't know what is wrong.

i do wanna let him go.. its all about me right now. about the feelings. i can't lie anymore. whenever i said "i love u", sometimes i don't mean it. i said it because i used to tell him everyday. but deep in my heart, i don't wanna lose him.

God, tell me what i have to do?

now, i don't wanna think about love. stop being silly dear self. just focus on life. focus on my diet & exercise. that could be worth.

sorry for this bad grammar. aku malas nak pikiaq lah bangang. aku taip apa yg terlintas ja ni.

bye.

Harap-harap OK 

Kita bertengkar soal yg remeh sahaja
Kita bertelagah soal yg mudah sahaja
Tentang lambat membalas sms 
Tentang tidak kata i love u di hujung panggilan
Tentang cara bercakap dah tak macam selalu 

Kita mula ungkit siapa yang lebih banyak berkorban
Siapa yang lebih cinta siapa 
Siapa yang sudah mula berubah 
Tiada apa-apa 

Kita sebenarnya ok-ok sahaja 
Cuma kita rindu sesama kita 
Takpa, nanti kita jumpa

all praises to Allah

Assalammualaikum.

alhamdulillah for everything i have right now. family, friends, relatives, boyfriend (yeaps hehe), and stuffs that i cant tell.

so yesterday i received a message from politeknik. they said congratulation & i was like "why? am i in any competition & i won something oi?". they ask me to go to their website to see the result. what result? rayuan. hehe.

seriously since the day i buat rayuan tu, i didn't think about the possibilities to get into this poli pun. long story short, i didn't think about it. buat taktau macam takda apa tenenenene~

so i checked. alhamdulillah. i got an offer to continue my study at PTSS. alhamdulillah im happy. i miss the feeling of being a student. how busy my life will be with all the assignment, test, study & ect.

so i'll start study by the end of this year, inshaAllah. i cant wait.

that's all. take care everyone. xoxo

the reasons

Assalammualaikum.

even its hard to let go the people who used to be with us but sometimes we have to let them go. its good for them & might be for us.

now, i'm deleting people who used to be with me but now they're just a person i used to knew. yes even its hard but sometimes we have to be heartless.

i'm not saying that was such a easy things to do but do we have an options? let them go or we stay in this situation which is hurt us so much? i rather choose to stay in this way, not letting people in easily & be heartless.

i'm sorry. i think i'm changed. i'm not a type a person i used to be, who cared too much, love too much & easily forgive people who hurt me.

by having this new soul, this new version of me, i wanna be happy. i have to forget those people who don't appreciate me & forget me too.

people asked me why the hell i'm being like this--
there's one answer, i used to this.
people come & go, so be prepare.

don't expect too much from them. they will leave when they get boring with us.

start a new day with a new smile, will you? (:

so, good night moon. have a nice day ahead.

*deleting memories between me & them* DONE!

∞ 

thanks for these girls who made my day lately. i miss my nado, nisak, tasah, wani so much. 

so keep smiling no matter what! everything happen, i bet it happens for a reason. hehe bye humans! (:

/counting days till the walking dead season 4/

mess life

Assalammualaikum.

God knows that my life is miserable yet He still give me a tests, to make me strong, i guess.

i'm tired with all these bullshit.

life, give me some break, will ya? i'm tired..

i really need someone to talk to but seems like everyone left me like i was nothing. thank you so much. i'm glad to had you guys, once, in my life.

i pray, i praying hard. i know He listens. i know He exist.

God, take my heart with You. i gave a little piece of my heart to humans, they break it. now, please, have mine?

bye everyone. xo

raya 2013

Assalammualaikum.

i hope i'm not too late to wishing you guys selamat hari raya, maaf zahir & batin for what i've done since i posting those entries, kot kot ada yang terasa, form bottom of my heart, aku minta maaf.

so how's your raya this year? *smile*

tahun ni raya paling hambar.

yeah well, raya tahun ni without husband lagi eh waitttt what atyn? without husband? yes, im single as fuck & i think that alright. im still young, though. lol

saja ja acah ihik ihik.

taktau aaa nak taip apa dah. haaaaaaa

so im here about to belajaq how to drive le car with my father & brother in law this petang & i'm scared as hell. pernah bawak 2 kali pusing jalan dekat rumah guna kereta kancil pikah & now aku kena drive citroen yang sah sah berlainan dengan kereta malaysia.

wish me luck (:

pasal kerja lak, pikah cakap kami inshaAllah start kerja awai bulan september. may Allah ease everything. ameen

ala alaaaaa sad me is sad sebab taktau nak update apa. eh korang korang kalau yang ada twitter jejemput follow i ok ((tetiba promote)), follow; @atynroslan_

i better go. nothing to tell ya guys right here la i need an ideas! hmp. so enjoy your raya with your loves one & be safe wherever you are!

okay bye! have a good day ahead guys. muah muah! (: x